Yesterday

It was suppose to be the best day..

A day i would remember for a life time..memories which i will carry along with me whenever i go..

The day..

Started out great..went to watch "wanted" with LST..was kinda disappointed with the movie though..i expected greatness..but somehow all the stunts were just to fake..however the story line was not too bad..there were twist to the truth..^^

After the movie..met up with Ping and Woen..den we headed of to the beach for bbq..played jet ski with Grace..fun fun fun..=) Had to leave early for my family dinner..miss granny so much..she gave me an ang pow..my uncle gave me some money too!..=D..

The night..

We all decided to hit the clubs once again..since most were in the clubbing mood..was having fun at first..but slowly the emo period set in again..tried really hard to forget about all my issues and problems and also the fact that it might be my last night seeing them in a long time..somehow I just couldn't.."it" got worst when the dance floor in mois was crowded by people which makes the whole club even hotter..so..i decided to leave mois and christ suggested we head for glo instead..cause it was much cooler there..had some drinks from LST's friends..felt much better at that point..

But once again.."it" set in again..and i end up acting like a complete jerk..=S..

The place...

After having supper at Subaidah with friends..we headed up to Tanjung Bungah Hotel..
We chat and talk about the good old times..although i didn't really join in..wasn't in the mood..but there were still some amusing parts..lol..

But it was when i talk to my friend..that i completely lose it..felt like a complete jerk..I'm really sorry to all of you who were affected by it..an act that i would never forgive myself..

This 2 weeks have been a tense week for me..it could have turn out different..but for the first time ever..i could not hide what i felt..usually I'm good at sucking everything in..but somehow i just couldn't..

But i do hope all my friends remember me as that fun..happy-go lucky person..i don't mean to be " perasan "..and forget about how strangely I've acted this 2 weeks..[ i bet this is the first time anyone ever seen me being so "strange " before ]..

Thanks to Ping too for all your advise and being there to listen to all my problems..sorry if u had to listen to it all night long..but all this while..i couldn't open up..and when i finally could..i just had alot to say..you had wanted me to know the answer so that i could move on..you had wanted to help me ask..but thank god I didn't do it..after hearing the last bit of my "story"..you concluded that i should just act like nothing happened and move on with my life..and also to hold on to this friendship which is so much more important than getting to know the answer..as you had convinced me..in the end..i did gain something..it might not be for long..but even for a moment..that's satisfying enough..you told me to be satisfied and i will be..=)

Thanks to Von too..u understand how i felt..and yes..a miracle is what i had hope for..but I'm a person who doesn't believe in miracles nor a fairy tale ending..this world is too cruel..and as i said "KARMA"...there are some bits and pieces i haven't told you about..and i will..don't worry i definitely will when i have the time to..=)..So for now..i want you to be happy too..don't be sad that I'm leaving..cause hey..i will be back before you know it..^^..and don't be sad about that matter any more..it might be very hard to let go..but you will eventually..

So..I've finally end the chapter of my emo period..today i will be who i was all along..the person you all have came to known.